I can understand that some of the content on this post might offend some but that isn’t my intention. These are my experiences and observations. I don’t mean to generalize because I know that there are good brothers and sister, and not so good brothers and sisters, both born in to Islam and reverted to Islam. I just happen to see more reverted brothers and sisters taking Islam seriously. And I know there are really good brothers and sisters who Alhamdulillah, were born in to Islam who don’t take it’s blessings for granted at all. Either way I just find it really sad to see any brother or sister going astray.
Recently I’ve noticed this look people give me. The look that says “The trouble with converts is that they take it too seriously”. I don’t understand it! I don’t understand how I am the wrong person for trying to practice the teachings of Islam. When ever I say, “we shouldn’t do that” or “that’s haram” I get that really annoying look! It’s become so frequent that now I don’t bother saying anything to my fellow brothers or sisters anymore, I just mind my own business and let them do what they want. I hear things like “Woah your talking like a scholar” or “Oh you know so much about this stuff”. And no it’s not said in a good way, it’s said in a “oh god” way! So yeah I read! I study! I try really hard to gather as much understanding of Islam as possible while trying to implement them in to my life. When did that start becoming a problem?!
Couple of weeks back on a normal outing with friends I was caught by surprise to see some brothers drinking alcohol. I honestly didn’t expect it and it did make me feel weird to know them and sit in the same table. It wasn’t because I was ashamed of them, I was just worried for them and I couldn’t understand why they would do that.
In all fairness I probably had the most judgmental face ever! I mean I could feel the judgement melting on my face so there is no way they didn’t catch it. I make it a point to try and not judge people because I’m imperfect myself and it’s only Allah who can really judge anyone of us. But I was just SO surprised! The worse of it was that they talked about it like it was nothing. They looked at me as if I was doing something wrong! And that is when I noticed it, the look. The look that I was trouble because I had obviously stopped being ‘cool’.
I am so tiered of seeing people give me this look! I get it from everywhere! Non-muslims look at me perplexed wondering why I am doing this, why I have reverted, why I wear hijab, why I’m not a so called “modern”/”moderate” muslim. You think I would be accepted by my brothers and sisters but even they see me as strange. Frankly I have stopped caring! I’m proud to be a revert, Alhamdulillah! I refuse to apologies or feel bad for being a good Muslim! Yes, I take it seriously, I’ve chosen this path and I intend to follow it properly. I’m not going to feel ashamed of that.
It’s not just about me either, I’ve seen a lot of people who stop and say “hey shall we go and pray” who are made to be social outcasts. If you have a beard, if you wear a niqab, if you wear a thaqiyah or jubbah, you pray on time and try to be a good Muslim, your instantly not cool and something is definitely wrong with you. When did this happen?! I can understand if it’s by people who don’t understand Islam but this is happening in our own Ummah. We are shutting out those who practice Islam with all their might and we are accepting these so called ‘cool’ kids. This can not be good for any of us.
When you ask a brother why he doesn’t grow his beard, he’d say “people will think I’m too religious”. WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?! What is being too religious? And above all why on earth is it a bad thing?. These are questions we need to think about. When did we start separating Islam in to ‘ok/can do’ activities and ‘too religious’ activities? We were asked to follow Islam and the Prophet (SAW)’s teachings. Why have we stopped?
I know from first hand experience that it feels good to go with the flow, the styles, and the it crowd. But one day it’s all going to end and we’re going to be left with nothing but the deeds which we wronged our own soul with. It’s up to us to change the trends and ourselves so that being a good human being, and being a good Muslim isn’t a bad thing, but an admirable thing.
As always I’m saying this to myself as much as I am to everyone out there. As one of MJ’s songs go, I’m starting with the man (well women in this case :)) in the mirror. I’m trying to surround myself with supportive friends who share my love of Islam. Inshallah, I hope by hanging out with them, I learn more, I improve and help them improve too. I’m trying to change my behavior towards sisters wearing niqab and brothers who opt for a jubbah over skinny jeans, Mashallah!. I’m going to try to be the change I want to see and I hope all my brothers and sisters will also do the same, Inshallah.