You know you are circling the drain when your eyes remain lifeless even in the most urgent of situations.
It’s like nothing phases you because inside you feel like you are a little dead.
Life goes on, you follow the routine, force a couple of smiles a day, increase the volume of your laugh so it sounds like you are having a good time, but inside, its just still.
Your heartbeat sounds so far away, almost like it doesn’t exist.
You look at the ones you love but only feel a flicker of love inside.
So you go on, boiling inside, all calm and natural outside, until the numbness takes over and you forget.
You forget what its like to be happy, what its like to really smile, and what it feel like to really laugh out loud.
Your mind scrambles to hold on to that last little flicker of positivity.
And that’s when you realize you are hanging by a thread.
This post definitely sums up so much of what I would like to say to all those who doubt my choice! I was never evil, I was just different. Now I’m better (by Allah’s grace), and only going to get better, Insha’Allah!
“Go back” where? To the dark side? Everyone I know well asks me this question.
Yes, I wasn’t born Muslim, and yes I did not always memorize Quran, and I didn’t always wear hijab and I didn’t always pray five times a day…. but… this may shock you… I wasn’t the devil.
In my past life I never treated anyone wrong, I had respect, compassion, love for all other people. I wasn’t wild. I was actually the one that always got made fun of for being “stuck up” because I thought I was too good for beer pong championships (white girl reference).
I wasn’t a party-girl, I didn’t do drugs, I didn’t sleep with dudes because they winked and blew an air-kiss my way.
Did I know people like that? Yes. Was I friends with these people? Yes. Was I one of them? NO.
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So I was doing my random things when I came across this! I thought it was best to share it with my brothers and sisters. As mentioned earlier in another post, Halal World Magazine is something I love. I would say the main reason was because we didn’t have anything like that in Sri Lanka. When I think of all the money we spend on useless magazines which gossip about celebs, this is well worth the money for me. Anyway! I found out that they are looking for freelance writers to do some work for them. I’m going to try and contribute something, insha’Allah. Just thought of letting all you beautiful writers out there know about it as well.
So if anyone is interested go right ahead. From the info I got, they aren’t looking for scholars or anything. They encourage amateur writers to come forward. Nationality is irrelevant. Any Hadith and/or Quran verses used must be referenced appropriately. As long as you have Islamic knowledge and stay under the topics of Banking & Finance, Food & Beverages, Education & Lifestyle, Travel & Tourism and Sports, your good to go. Unfortunately since it’s still in its infancy stage it doesn’t pay the writers, but plus side is you actually get published in a proper magazine. How cool is that?!
So it has been quite some time since I have done a proper blog post. I’ve been feeling somewhat guilty about not updating my blog. Either way I have dearly missed jotting down my thoughts. It’s just been really hard to find time to just sit and work. I know deep down it’s an excuse because if I wanted to I could have made time but I just feel uncomfortable when things are haywire. My room is being renovated so everything is everywhere. True enough all I need is my laptop to blog, but it really is the serenity and neat quietness of my room which allows me to think. I have a couple of posts which I’m working on, very slowly, and inshallah I will be able to publish them very soon.
I don’t know why but lately I’ve just been feeling out of it. I get that way sometimes. Does anyone else feel just off or out of it? Or is it just me?! It normally fixes itself once I pray but sometimes it sticks and I have to fight a little harder to be normal again. I’ve been fighting for sometime now but not hard enough, I know I’m not fighting hard enough. So this is me, proclaiming to the world that I will fight harder! and inshallah I will succeed in not letting Shaythan bring me down!
My new found addication has also aided in my absense on wordpress. It sounds strange but I am seriously addicted to TripAdvisor.com. I just have so much to review! Alhamdulillah I’ve been lucky enough to be able to try out so many new and old restaurants in Colombo, so the reviews I have to do are endless! I’m starting to think I need some sort of intervention 😀
To add to all the craziness around me my parents decide to go on a vacation (which is just an opportunity since my dad is going on a business trip anyway) to Canada and USA, taking my brother and me along. No complaints from my side, I’m excited that I finally get to see the USA! Inshallah this will be a great trip. We have family there so it’s not too much of a money splurge. I really want to see the big apple! 😀 I’ll probably try to do some posts while traveling, inshallah. I’m planning on taking plenty of pictures! and yes I’m the type to click away, trees, birds, buildings, sidewalks, benches, anything my crazy little head finds interesting 😀
I hope all my beautiful sisters and brothers are doing good and remain in the strongest of iman, inshallah.
Till next time,
Assalamualaikum my dear sisters and brothers!
Ramadan Kareem to you all and I hope that this Ramadan has been amazing to each and everyone of you! I’m of course loving every minute of it and frankly, slightly sad that it’s almost over!
But…getting back to the point, to my amazement I just found out that I have been nominated for the “Reader Appreciation Award” by sister Maryam. I’m completely amazed but very grateful for sister Maryam’s nomination 🙂
Anyhow let us get down to the details now!
Once you have been nominated, here are a few things that need to be done/followed,
1. Include the award logo somewhere in your blog.
2. Answer the 10 questions below for fun, if you want to.
3. Nominate blogs that you enjoy.
4. Pay the love forward: Provide your nominees with a link to your post and comment on their blog to let them know they’ve been included and invited to participate.
5. Pay the love back with gratitude and a link to the blogger(s) who nominated you.
Here we go with the questions! 😀
Favorite color: Blue, blue, blue and more blue. Occasionally purple as well 🙂
My favorite animal: Tiger
What is your favorite non- alcoholic drink? Faluda!! 😀
What do you prefer Twitter or Facebook?Eh…neither but I do occasionally use Facebook
What is your favorite pattern? That is a very good question….I don’t know. I sort of go with the flow on patterns.
Would you rather receive or give presents? Give! Not that I don’t enjoy ripping open presents, but I love to see people’s faces when they open presents. I also love to wrap gifts with beautiful wrapping paper, bows, ribbons, and other sparkly stuff 😀
Favorite number? 3
Favorite day? Friday 🙂
Favorite flower? Not very particular but I do like roses.
Passion? Writing of course, driving and baking.
Below are the blogs that I have nominated for this award:
All of these blogs inspire me and I love reading their posts so I really am glad I’m able to show them my appreciation 🙂